On behalf of all of us at Fish, we congratulate the 10 winners who’s memoir made it into the Fish Anthology 2024 (due to be launched in July ’24 at the West Cork Literary Festival), and to those writers who made the long and short-lists, well done too.
Thank you to Sean Lusk, for the time and enthusiasm that he put into selecting the winners.
Notes from Sean on the 10 winning memoirs.
(There were 717 entries in total)
Selected by Sean Lusk. Author of The Second Sight of Zachary Cloudesley
FIRST
Chess with the Wehrmacht
by Rand Richards Cooper (USA)
SECOND
I Should Have held Him
by David Longstaff (UK)
THIRD
Before the Sun
by Daisy O’Clee (UK)
HONORARY MENTIONS (In no particular order.)
Train to Nowhere
by Sara Green (Australia)
The Mortal Shift
by Sylvia Torti (USA)
The Lone Ranger
by Kirsty Cockburn (UK)
Sketches of Spain
by Arthur Wright (UK)
These Shoes
by Gemma Green (UK)
Alfie Plum, The Unspoken Words
by Brian Jones (UK)
Bubbles
by Stephen Bridger (UK)
This very strong set of memoirs deliver emotional weight, combining the personal and particular with the universal. Each one is touching, though often in surprising ways: the loss of a child is a consistent theme – sometimes a child simply lost because they have left home, sometimes more searingly because a baby is lost in childbirth. Loss of parents, too, features in many of these memoirs. Significant international events – war, terrorism, and climate crisis, make their appearance, as do crumbling public services. The unifying factor is that each is described through the eyes of memory – subjective and not always wholly reliable. That the subject of memoir is so often personal trauma should not surprise us – these are so often the experiences that burn deep and which, when the time comes, we feel the need to tell.
Bubbles is an absorbing account of the often anarchic experience of a junior doctor working in a hospital in chaos, surrounded by larger than life characters – each going through their own intensely personal traumas. Alfie Plum, the Unspoken Words is a tender account of a taciturn man’s wartime experiences, as imagined by a nephew who has to fill in the gaps. These Shoes is a mother’s reflections on losing a son because he has grown up and away, the process of redecorating what had been his bedroom almost a form of grief. Sketches of Spain is a gripping account of the Madrid bombing of 2004 and the public response to it, and to the government the electorate threw out when it became clear they had tried to exploit the tragedy to win an election. The Lone Ranger tells of two women seeking a man willing to be the father to the child they hope to conceive. He turns out to be not quite what he appears to be. The Mortal Shift intertwines the landscape of the Colorado desert and the search for water with one woman’s diagnosis of breast cancer. Train to Nowhere is a wonderfully written piece describing a chance encounter on a train, and a reminder that a memoir can be every bit as significant when recounting nothing more than an hour or two in a stranger’s company.
Third placed memoir Before the Sun is a moving and gripping account of dealing with a mother’s sudden death, while coping with the final stages of pregnancy. Beautifully observed, intensely honest, I felt in reading it as if I knew these people intimately. Second placed I Should have Held Him is a hugely moving account of the loss of a baby in childbirth, told from the perspective of a father who struggles to come to terms with that loss, trying desperately to be the man he wishes to be in this moment of profound heartbreak. Written with deceptive simplicity, it works on every level, and reminds us of the importance of holding each other, and of holding on. First placed Chess with the Wehrmacht is a stunning piece of writing. Set in 1987 in Mainz it describes how a young American, eager to understand the mindset of the wartime generation of Germans, slowly befriends a group of old men who play chess in the park. Week by week he gets to the heart of what is revealed to be a great self-deception – cynicism, cordial and absolute, as the memoir so precisely tells us. This is memoir as history, as travelogue, as memory, as storytelling, its observations striking at the heart of something truly important and revealing. When memoir does that for us, it does us all a great service.
A LITTLE ABOUT THE WINNERS
Rand Richards Cooper is the author of two works of fiction, The Last to Go and Big As Life. As an essayist and journalist he has covered an alarming range of topics, from coed locker rooms to Indian casinos, Botox parties, the wonders of the F-word, the search for lost WW II submarines, the sexual politics of having your dog neutered, soccer and the meaning of life, the origins of jerk barbecue, and why McDonald’s should not be allowed to build on the corner of his street. Which, by the way, is in Hartford, Connecticut.
David Longstaff began writing stories two years ago. He has been shortlisted and a winner in six UK competitions. His dark humour is always present. He is an inch shorter than he was, has size 12 feet and his enlarged prostrate is currently being treated. He no longer owns a dog.
Daisy O’Clee reported for local newspapers in Kent in the late 1990s. She delivered aid to Kosovan refugees in Albania and visited Brunei to interview the Gurkhas before they relocated to her home town of Folkestone. She has campaigned on behalf of cancer patients, children in the care system and people with severe mental illness. She lives in Hove with her children Mollie and Lenny, and is excited to be retraining in rebirthing breathwork.
Sara Green was born in the Caribbean, then taken to England by cruel parents. Finding it too cold, she backpacked to Australia. Her ancestors gave her the globe-trotting gene and she is busy writing their stories – a murdered great aunt, a ‘bolter’ grandmother, and an African explorer great-grandfather. On her travels, she writes vignettes of people she meets. Train to Nowhere is one of these. Sara writes Creative Non-Fiction, Fiction and Memoir in the Australian bush and Sydney.
Sylvia Torti is an ecologist and writer. She holds a Ph.D. in biology and is the author of two novels (The Scorpion’s Tail, Curbstone Press, 2005 and Cages, Schaffner Press, 2017). Her short stories and essays have been published in numerous magazines and edited volumes. (https://sylviatorti.com/). She has just been named President of College of the Atlantic in Maine, USA, where students from across the world grapple with questions of human ecology.
Kirsty Cockburn lives on the South coast in the UK. She works in Communications and enjoys writing, running, swimming and cycling. Her favourite times tend to find her on a paddleboard or in a kayak having adventures with her two inspiring boys.
Arthur Wright. In the year 2000, after gaining a degree at Nottingham Trent University in analogue photography, Arthur relocated to Madrid, Spain along with his wife and two-year-old son. Combining photography work with English teaching and writing, he embraced the culture and language, only returning in 2017 to study an MA in Fine Art. Presently he is writing, making art, and teaching in North Norfolk, with aspirations to return one day to the land of his heart.
Gemma Green is an ex-Bailiff, now online tarot reader. She has a Masters in poetry from UEA and recently took up memoir in the hope of making sense of the past. She writes best from her sofa, surrounded by snacks and wrote this short memoir in secret. Now it’s getting published, she might have to tell the family what she’s been up to. Then again, she might not.
Brian Jones grew up in an industrial suburb of Manchester. His working life was steeped in IT, spiced with periods as a civil servant, sous chef, painter and decorator, photographer… In 2014 he started to write and in 2023 graduated from Chichester University with an MA in Creative Writing. He has had a number of short satirical pieces published and is currently studying philosophy and writing a novel set against the backdrop of Thatcher’s Britain.
Stephen Bridger is a gastroenterologist, and part-time husband, father and writer. He has spent his life working and teaching in understaffed hospitals. If he isn’t catching up on sleep, then he likes to run and swim. He is too mean to pay for therapy. Bubbles is his first attempt at remembering.
SHORT-LIST (in alphabetical order. There were 717 entries in total)
Short-list of 26 memoirs
Afric McClinchy |
Bluff |
Arthur Wright |
Sketches of Spain |
Brian Jones |
Alfie Plum, The Unspoken Words |
Christine McDonough |
Melancholy – Regret’s Shorter, Pimply Cousin |
Daisy O’Clee |
Before the sun |
Damien Ryan |
Skeokhojeong |
David Longstaff |
I should have held him |
David McLoghlin |
Extract From the Darien Gap |
Ellie Rees |
Memories of Joyce |
Garret Dwyer Joyce |
Bombs and Bullets |
Gemma Green |
These Shoes |
Joel Bond |
One Foot in Front of the Other |
Julie Leoni |
May All Sentient Beings Be Free From Suffering and From the Causes of Suffering |
Katherine Drago |
Ordinary Magic |
Kirsty Cockburn |
The Lone Ranger |
Layla O’Mara |
It Is Here That Nettles Grow |
Martin Cromie |
Absolved From Guilt |
Michelle Brock |
Walking on ice |
Mike Murray |
Dan the Man |
Olivia Rana |
The Woman at the TUI Blue Hotel |
Philippa Groom |
My Hummingbird Heart |
Rachel Winner |
Roommates |
Rand Richards Cooper |
Chess with the Wehrmacht |
Sara Green |
Train to Nowhere |
Stephen Bridger |
Bubbles |
Sylvia Torti |
The Mortal Shift |
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LONG-LIST (in alphabetical order. There were 717 entries)
Long-list of 79 memoirs
Afric McGlinchey |
Bluff |
Alain Speed |
Alzheimer’s |
Alan Passey |
Luigi and The President |
Amelia Aston |
Laila |
Andrea Breen |
Murmurings |
Ann Fischer |
Daddy’s Girl |
Annette Corbett |
The Long Goodbye |
Arthur Wright |
Sketches of Spain (1 and 2) |
BARBARA Rouillard |
Without Notice |
Brian Jones |
Alfie Plum – The Unspoken Words |
Brian Witherden |
Land of My Mother’s |
C.P. Nield |
The Twin Dilemma |
Caroline Heffernan |
The Phone Call |
Carolyn Colburn |
You Get What You Need |
chris youle |
Between the Cries |
Chrissie Horton |
The Private Life of Danny Bloom |
Christine McDonough |
Melancholy – Regret’s Shorter, Pimply Cousin |
Claudia Cruttwell |
Village Life |
Daisy O’Clee |
Before The Sun |
Damian Ryan |
Seokhojeong |
David Hughes |
Rebecca |
David Longstaff |
I should have held him |
David McLoghlin |
Darien Gap |
David Ralph |
May the Sun Keep Shining |
Deirdre Anne Hines |
My Beautiful Father -For-Get-Me-Not |
Derek Perry |
My Tale of Two Cities |
Devon Becker |
Who Will Conquer |
Éanlaí P. Cronin |
I Love You |
Eithne O’Halloran |
Kingdom of the Stars |
Ellen Birrell |
Deep End |
Ellie Rees |
Memories of Joyce |
Evie Lambert |
Freedom of Movement |
Garret Dwyer Joyce |
Bombs and Bullets |
Gemma Green |
These Shoes |
Gina G |
My Mother’s Mirror |
James Garvey |
Bonjour Banal |
Jill Lewis |
Arcs of a Life |
Joel Bond |
One Foot in Front of the Other |
John Kaufmann |
Eighty-Sixed |
Judy Bridges Bridges |
A Photographic Memory |
Julie Leoni |
May all sentient beings be free |
Karen Samski |
Fame and Infamy: Bridgework 87 |
Karin van Heerden |
Goodbye |
Katherine Drago |
Ordinary Magic: The Spellbinding Nature of Fireflies |
Kerry Beckett |
Nursery Rhymes |
Kirsty Cockburn |
The Lone Ranger |
Layla O’Mara |
It Is Here That Nettles Grow |
Letty Butler |
The Dinosaur Museum |
L J Mercer |
Ding Dong |
Marion Henderson |
The Taste of Hate |
Mark Cole |
Unzipped |
Martin Cromie |
Absolved From Guilt |
Matilda KIME |
The Day Player. |
Matt Taylor |
Gone |
Michelle Brock |
Walking on Ice |
Mike Murray |
Dan the Man |
Morgan Barbour |
Teeth |
Nicholas Murray |
Ballymac |
Noellyn Fraser |
The Sailor and the Siren |
Olivia Rana |
To the Woman at the TUI Blue Hotel |
Palli Ward |
Pig-jawed |
Patricia Guthrie |
Mum |
Philippa Groom |
My Hummingbird Heart |
Qingqing Cai |
What I Misremember About a Dead Man |
Rachel Winner |
Roommates |
Rand Richards Cooper |
Chess With the Wehrmacht |
Riba Taylor |
Travelers |
Robert Coles |
DAKAR BY DAY |
Robert James-Robbins |
‘Nounou’ |
Sheena Wilkinson |
How I Killed My Granda |
Sheena Wilkinson |
How Much is that Doggie in the Window |
Simon Beechinor |
Yesterday’s Soldiers |
Stephen Bridger |
Bubbles |
Steve Stevenson |
Metamorphosis |
SYLVIA TORTI |
The Mortal Shift |
Toni Thomas |
Lilacs |
Sara Jane Green |
Train to Nowhere |
Troy Spence |
Four Acts |
Vera Hough |
Refueling With Care |